Happy Birthday!!!

Happy birthday to you~
happy Birthday tooooooo youu~
HAPPY BIIIIIIIRTHDAY TO AYAKA~
HAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaappy BIIIIIIIIIiiiiiiiirthdaaaAAAAAY toooo YOU~!
actually its tomorrow and i know that but i dont have internet at home sooo im just posting it now!
yaaay
your 19!!
you lucky person!
i wish i was 19..
then things arent that complex..
like buying things and stuff..
mann!!!
hmm..
hope your Birthday is all the more great this year in japan!!
mann a year ago we celebrated it here..
a year goes so fast!
ill see you soon!
<3 you sister!!
have TONS of fun!!!
-Masa [猿]
P.S.- dont get too wasted! hahahaha
oh and the start i was singing. hahaha
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Love Death

"死にて~!"っと思った事ありますか?
have you thought of death lately?
what is my purpose on this world?
does God really care?
how your going to die?
how it'll effect other people?
is it selfish for you to just end it?
would they remember your existance? or would they just forget?
would they cry cause they have to? or is it their true soul that weeps?

i have dreams, to others Nightmares, for me just everyday dreams.
dreams full of gore, betrayal, murder, kills, killing, planning...
in my dream, happy endings are rare..
i kill my closest friends in my dreams..
they plot towards me..
there is way too much..
this post will continue..
when i have the most gorey-est dream...again.

-Masa [猿]

Survive.

Survive
By Rise Against

Somewhere between happy and total fucking wreck,
Feet sometimes on solid ground and sometimes at the edge...
To spend your waking moments simply killing time,
Is to give up on your hopes and dreams, to give up on your...

[Chorus:]
Life for you has been less than kind. (Who we are...)
So take a number, and stand in line. (Who we are...)
We’ve all been sorry, we’ve all been hurt... (Who we are...)
But how we survive, is what makes us who we are. (Who we are...)

An obvious disinterest; a barely managed smile.
A deep nod in agreement; a status quo exile.
I shirk my obligations; I miss all your dead-lines.
I excel at quitting early; and fucking up my life...

[Chorus]

All smiles and sunshine, a perfect world on a perfect day...
Everything always works out, I have never felt so fucking great.
All smiles and sunshine, a perfect world on a perfect day...
Everything always works out, I have never felt so great.

Life isn't like this...
Life isn't like this...
Life isn't like this...
Life isn't like this...

What life isn't like this?
Life isn't like this...
Are we verging on an answer, or fucking up our...

[Chorus]

(Who we are...)
It’s what makes us who we are...(Who we are...)
Makes us who we are...(Who we are...)
It’s what makes us who we are...(Who we are...)

end.

its what you make of it.
survive.
be hurt, live past it.
you grow as a person in which you understand the way of this world.
being hurt, its just another factor of life.
to be the bigger person and say, "alright that was a bad experience."
and to move on.
thats what's the mature and self-less thing to do.

Survive.
Live.
Grow.
thats what a person should do.

Party boy?!!!

This was a Norm Violation homework for a class in NMC.
March 4th 2008

Okay.
i go to a school that's right beside NMC, which is NMA.
i'm a senior soo i pretty much know everybody thats in the school.
how can you not theres only about 30 students.
sooo in my school im kinda known to be. . lets just say "out there."
For my Folkway Norm Violation i did what can't be excused if it's not an assignment.
i went to school in a bathrobe.
well thats not bad at all... Right?
well underneath the bathrobe i wore:
Speedos, Blue silky one that my friend bought as a joke for my birthday. since i never wore it i thought why not.
then i looked through the stuff that i had and found a BOW TIE!!
soo i wore that too.
to top it off i got my aviator shades and headed to school.
so i looked Silly and cool at the same time!! xD
when i got out of the house my auntie gave me a look of "What is he doing?!" i said goodbye to her and headed to school.
as i was heading here i had to slow down because a Chinese person was walking across the road. and as i slowed down so did she.
she gave me a "WTF!!!!" face and Ran not walked RAN to the other side.
i got to school, walked in and sat on the couch.
my principal came out and started to laugh as he was walking to his office.
Mr. Tae our other principal that's new to the school came and saw me, in a bathrobe he approaches me with a big smile, laughs and says "is this for your assignment?" and he continued with a serious tone, "are you wearing anything INSIDE?" i told him i was wearing my speedos and that i wasnt completely naked underneath.
Phillip walked in stopped and stared. didnt say a word.
Kai came into just check where his class was, saw me, and he said "What are you wearing?! oh riiight!" and left.
one of my teachers came to talk to me, tried to ignore the fact that i was in a bathrobe and wearing a bow tie, but in the middle of our discussion she laughed. and walked away.
one of the girls walked in with a smile but as soon as she realized i wasn't wearing normal cloths shouted out "OH!! WHAT HAPPENED!" and said "you and only you can pull this off."
Right after that Luis walks in he sees me pauses, then laughs.
and i tell him that im wearing speedos underneath and laughs with a surprised face of "really?"
a couple more people walk in with the same reaction of laughing and giggling.
with korean word i do not understand as a comment.
in course of this event umm 2 people tried to talk my robe off.
hahaha which was amusing to both me and them i guess.

It was a fun thing to do for me and not that far from my reach.
i came to school wearing speedos underneath my bathrobe and a bow tie.
their faces were priceless.